Forgiveness

Forgiving someone for something they have done to us is something that God calls upon us all to do. There are many verses in the bible that talk about man's need to forgive one another.

Matthew 6:14
        For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.

One of my biggest issues right now is not the forgiveness aspect it's forgetting. But I'm left with the question of how can one truly forgive if the can't forget. The wound is deep and still bleeding for me and each time I begin to think its healing something comes along and opens it up for me. I truly believe in my heart and mind that I have granted forgiveness for how I was wronged, but I also know that for me to become the man that God has meant for me to be I must move past this point somehow someway....

Until next time....

Passages that I found for Depression

I found these passages that are ment to help with the depression I am currently in. I hope anyone else who reads this blog or is dealing with depression can use these verses to help you find your inner peace with Jesus as I'm also looking for mine.

Psalm 32:10"Many sorrows come to the wicked, but unfailing love surrounds those who trust in the Lord."(NIV)

Psalm 37:23-24"²³The Lord directs the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives. ²⁴Though they stumble, they will never fall, for the Lord holds them by the hand."(NIV)

1 Peter 5:7"Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you." (NIV)

Romans 12:2"Don't copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you thing. Then you will learn to know God's will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect." (NIV)

Proverbs 14:14"The faithless will be fully repaid for their ways, and the good man rewarded for his."(NIV)

Another Day...

So it's another day and as I watch my life is changing more and more... My daughter is becoming accustom to it being just me and her again, but we both miss her mother and brothers a ton.. I keep thinking that this will all be a dream and I'll wake up from it soon but no such luck for me. I know its crazy for me to think about all the things that could have changed to make it work but i can't help myself from seeing the mistakes we both made and wishing we could have a chance to change them. But i know right now i have to focus on me and get my self better before I can work on anything else. I became addicted to her like a drug and i see that the more I'm away from her that i was very codependent on her and have to break that cycle before i can ever be whole again....

Until next time......

About Me

Not sure where to start with all this, so i guess the best thing is to just tell you about me. I'm 32 and live in Lake Charles, LA. About early August my wife of almost 7 years decided to leave me because as she said "I'm just not in love with you anymore"... and don't get me wrong I didn't exactly give 100% of myself to the marriage and she did hang on for seven years but she left and took my 2 boys who are 5 and 3. So now me and my 13 year old daughter are living with my parents while we're looking for a new place to live. The separation has taken a serious tole on my psyche to the point i was admitted to the psych ward voluntarily due to wanting to hurt myself. I've been out now for almost a week and the Dr's tell me journaling will help me deal with my issues.... I guess right now I'm just in a place where i just don't know what I'm supposed to do. I still love my wife with all my heart and soul but I'm realistic about the situation and realize were we are probably headed and I'm not really happy about that. What's bad is I don't even know if anyone will ever read this but I'm going to keep posting my thoughts as much as possible, hopefully daily... I'll also try and post some of my interesting stories from when i was in the hospital cause it's amazing the crap that goes on up there, and most of it is so funny it just cant be made up.

JB